Thursday, December 30, 2004


It's 7.20 pm and I'm alone in the office, with lots and lots of work! Thanks to WFMS development, I feel important. heh!

I'm going home.

Monday, December 27, 2004

10 more invites???

Just noticed it yesterday. Gmail, how did that happen?? Who am I going to invite anyway? Do they expire?

Lelong..lelong.... leila....leilaa......

Friday, December 24, 2004

Technical visit

Went to SAJH last Tuesday for a visit to their IT Department. It didn't feel like I was in Johor. The office is quite tight. Their billing system is quiet impressive. They've spent about RM5 mil on GIS but I don't see much results from the system. Unlike PUAS, most of the systems there are client-based and still in integration state. Well we've learned so much (Thank you Cik Zailan!).

One thing though I'll remember for a long time, when the plane landed at Senai Airport, it was a very very rough landing everyone sitting behind me was cursing. I still remember it was a Capt. Chong's (or Chan or Chang or something of that nature) work, of MAS Airlines. huh!

On the way back, the delay was so great (2 hours) they gave us meal vouchers for dining at the Airport Restaurant. Knowing how expensive the meals are, we ordered whatever we want. We also turned out to be the last pasenggers to go on board....heheheheh.... Not until the plane was ready to depart did we storm in.

Woke up at 5am on that day and I only reached home at 11pm! Eventhough I was dead starving I went straight to bed anyway...


I was 25 minutes late for work the next day...

Sunday, December 19, 2004

Wedding presents

I just got Ani and her newly wedded husband a gift voucher courtesy of Jusco. The wedding was on last Sunday and I couldn't get anything, I was short of cash... Anyway, Aslam chipped in too and I'm going to mail it probably this week. All I need now is a cograts card I forgot to get one while I was there the other day. hhmmmppfhh!

I went to Giant on Thursday and I was browsing through Speedy racks. And there they were, lining up neatly showing off. LOTR: Return of The King Special Extended Version is finally out! Without thinking I grabbed one and paid for it. I've watched it twice already (it's 4 hour show). I can't help drooling over Faramir..... hehehe... Other than Aragorn and Pippin, he's on top of my favorites. Legolas? No thanks. He's cold. I love the strength that Faramir had, to overcome his grief over having not loved equally by his father and how he fought bravely for his country despite all that. He had given everything to win his father's affection but nothing worked, not until the end. See how he kept seeing himself falling one after another? And how he kept standing back up again after another? He might see himself as a failure but look at how his friends saw him quite the opposite. Perseverence is what counts to any success. And look at what he got in the end, his own fair lady of Rohan.

Ladies, you should see him when he first cought glimpse of Eowyn.

Friday, December 17, 2004

My Lolita is running out!

Oh what do I do?? It'll cost me another RM200.... uwaaaaa!!! sengkek mokcik.... but what to do. I've been an admirer since 2001 and couldn't find any other to replace it. I can't live without it since it's already a part of me now.

Fragrance description:

Lolita Lempicka Perfume by Lolita Lempicka, Launched By The Design House Of Lolita Lempicka In 1997, Lolita Lempicka Is Classified As A Refreshing, Oriental, Woody Fragrance. This Feminine Scent Possesses A Blend Of Exotic Licorice And Vanilla Combined With Light Greens, Florals And Musk. It Is Recommended For Daytime Wear.

Ooohh... I wear it day and night. Am a one perfum person. Can't bear being a traitor...heheheh....

Yet another Fragrance Description:

Lolita Lempicka has an unusual composition, being comprised of two fragrances in one, each with its own top, middle, and base notes. The first is a floral, and the second is an innovative licorice fragrance, creating a sensual and intoxicating "fairytale" fragrance.

Lolita Lempicka is categorized as a floral semi-oriental.

Top notes: anise seed, ivy

Heart notes: violet, iris, amarise, licorice, Amarena cherry

Base notes: vetiver, tonka bean, vanilla, praline, musk

I love the bottle that happens to come with it!

The enchanting bottle (by Alain de Mourges and Pochet et du Courval) is shaped like an apple - which is the fruit of temptation, after all - with a stem for a pump, and etched with an intricate gold and ivy leaf motif.

Monday, December 13, 2004

Name generators

I have other names other than Nuhaa All Bakry or so it seems...

My Japanese name is Hama Abukara. ( I don't have any idea how is that kawaii).

Take The Kawaii Japanese Name Generator by Shuichigami today!

My very British name is Margaret Walpole.

Take The Very British Name Generator today!

My magical Potterized name is Luna. (haha!)

Take Harry Potter Name Generator today!

My fairy name is Sugarplum Sparkly Berry. (wheeeeeeeeeeee!!!)

Take What's Your Fairy Name? by badasstronaut today!

My Indonesian name is Nur Asmawati. (....kui...kui...)

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My Egyptian name is Nubia (from Nubia).

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My Swedish name is Hanna Carlsson.

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My funky new name is Naida.

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My Depressing name is Hallow Eyes. (Naida the Hallow Eyes... heheheh..)

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My new enlightened Hindu name is Anushree Balamurali. (no thanks. I prefer Nuhaa)

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My Chineseifyed! is Bun Dan. (oh?)

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My Aussie name is Shazza Phillips. (really??)

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My Irish name is Niamh Flaherty. (wouldn't that be mistaken as nymph? oh God...)

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Ok that's enough. I still like Nuhaa no matter what these names mean.

Had fun. It's 10.52 a.m.

Oh how time flies...

Going back to work.

Saturday, December 11, 2004


gi tgk Ocean's Twelve smalam. gi balik naik lrt jer dari bangsar. punyer lah takleh naik public transport cam bas and the like, i threw up on the way back dalam kete si tipah... kah kah... sib baik tak kena seat keta, sempat menadah. terkocoh2 tipah paking tepi jalan sesambil bantai gelak kat insan yang tak keruan di sebelah time tuh. sib baik malam gelap org tak nampak kerja-kerja dobi yang berlaku ke atas seluar + blouse.

this is one experience i'll never forget. dapat souvenir plak tuh out of it. towel puas kaler kuning! tenkiu ler cik tipah wehhh... sang penyelamat di waktu duka lara...heh!

sampai umah, tukar baju, recall balik apa yang berlaku, senyum sensorang, tutup lampu, baring atas katil, tarik slimut, recall lagi, tesenyum lagi, zzzzzzzz.....

Friday, December 10, 2004

...i won't talk....i won't breathe...

I just got out from the meeting room for the annual performance appraisal with the boss and another boss. I scored 90.5 out of 100!! Whhoooaaaaaaaa!! I couldn't believe my ears. So that means I fall into 'Good performer' category. Whoa! I'm so excited. It's probably a confidential information but hell I don't care. I'm so excited! I've been a good employee! An accomplishment I need to have to make it all up for the one I didn't get while I was in university. I deserve something good in return.

Need to pamper myself tonight. Going to bed early. Ah, tomorrow's the movie thingie day. That should be a just social reward for myself. I heard Ocean's Twelve isn't that bad. I love Ocean's Eleven.

Maybe it's too soon to get excited all over. Been here for only a year. But I've used 'excited' 3 times already.

*hums True helplessly*

Thursday, December 9, 2004

Last night meeting

It's been a while since I last saw Bad (almost 6 months). Yesterday he asked me out for dinner so I said yes (duh). It's been too long I forgot how tall he is and how broad his shoulder is....

Yahoo Mail is now 250MB. Hmmm... what's that about?...

Am listening to Ryan Cabrera's True. How I wish someone would sing that song for me. *has dreamy eyes*

Tuesday, December 7, 2004


Am in computer lab with the IGP people, having some interactive mapping session. Nice people.

They're doing the work and I'm stuck here for eternity. It's kind of boring and I can't help it wishing it will be over soon. It's tiring and boring at the same time because it's a repetitive task circling the whole state everytime. I'd like to explore PHP/MapScript further. At least on Windows since I couldn't figure out how to install PostGIS on Windows. I know I should use Cygwin but hell I've tried. Either PostgreSQL won't initiate or I don't know where to make install the PostGIS tar file to.

Monday, December 6, 2004

Another weekend

Oh lookie... what have I found today - Ashrufzz

One of my online mate's blog...

Now how did I know him ha?? Was it probably through emails?? I can't remember. But he's on my Friendster.

Got back from a presentation for Anugerah Inovasi ICT SUK 2004 around 2.30pm instead of the expected 1pm. Needless to say the juries were impressed! heheh.. no I'm not exaggerating but I don't know if they were just faking it or the real thing. Oh I don't care, it's over I can can get back to my real work. Abis seminggu buat keje anugerah jer.

Went to Liza + Kamal's wedding ceremony yesterday. It was good to see them happy. Went to the Facon Education Fair afterwards too. Thought going alone might seem awkward to both myself and people. So the easiest solution was to call Aran - the neareast contact and the most likely to be available person of the day. It was nice of him to be a good sport accompanying me to both events....heheheh... best ah u Aran. Much thanks! Ingat first gaji kang.

Got back home around 6pm and had my dinner early. Fell asleep while watching tv. Awoken by a mysterious reason, realized it was already 9! Thought might as well went to bed because I was so damn energy-less. Woke up late today. Was lucky to be in office right at 8 o'clock.

Turned out everybody else was late for work. Pah!

Monday, November 29, 2004

Mysterious scratches on my car!

How did it get there?? I just noticed it this morning on my way to work. It must be pretty recent otherwise I would've noticed it. I wasn't the one who did it or otherwise I would've remembered.

It's not that major but it's UGLY! Oh man I have to find a way to put it out of sight.


Wednesday, November 24, 2004

Hello again

It's raya and it has done nothing to me but leaking my purse...

After a week of cuti raya I'm so grateful I took another 2 days off Monday & Teusday. I was on bed the whole day, getting out of my room only to go to the bathroom, the kitchen and the VCD's drawers where all the cd's are kept.

I should be planning the alumni's raya gathering now as I had not been able doing so during the week off work - left the contacts at home. Oh well, had been trying to call a few people but either I was too tired to talk or they were all unreachable! Fine I'd do it after I got home then. So here I am at work, still trying to prioritize things needed to be done accordingly. And it's already 10. I've done nothing but updating my bookshelf and checking heap of emails.

Blogging is done for now, going to check out updates on friends' blogs and then make some calls....

Friday, November 12, 2004

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri

It's official. I haven't done any real work this week. Am proud to say that am still working today even though lots of people are gone balik kampung yesterday.

Finished reading Bridget Jones's Diary (courtesy of a v. generous chrisim) - it's hilarious and a v. v. fun read indeed. Oops... haven't journaled it yet. Bad reader! *spank myself*

Tuesday, November 9, 2004

Can't focus

I'm truly losing my focus here. I'm abandoning my mapping work for a while until the cranium says the raya is over or get the heck in there you lazy twit! Most of us in the office are not so into work at the moment considering raya is just around the corner.

Ooh yes I've recently developed a fondness for the english people. I don't know why but it's probably the accent and english sense of humour. Blame it on Notting Hill, Love Actually, Snatch, Shakespear In Love, Bridget Jones' Diary, etc. Oh how I wish I could hear them talk everyday instead of this ever so often boring american's on tv. I personally adore Colin Firth only when he's all gentleman and not being dumb in movies.

Okay I've been doing nothing but surfing the net for rubbish, non-work related, for the whole day. I'm such a bad employee today.

Robbie Williams - Something Beautiful

You can't manufacture a miracle

The silence was pitiful - that day

And love is getting too cynical

Passion's just physical - these days

You analyse everyone you meet

But get no sign - the loving kind

Every night you admit defeat

And cry yourself blind

If you can't wake up in the morning

'Cause your bed lies vacant at night

If you're lost, hurt, tired or lonely

Can't control it - try as you might

May you find that love that won't leave you

May you find it by the end of the day

You won't be lost, hurt, tired and lonely

Something beautiful will come your way

The DJ said on the radio

Life should be stereo - each day

And the past that cast the unsuitable

Instead of some kind of beautiful

You just couldn't wait

All your friends think you're satisfied

But they can't see your soul, no, no, no

Forgot the time feeling petrified

When they lived alone

If you can't wake up in the morning

'Cause your bed lies vacant at night

If you're lost, hurt, tired or lonely

Can't control it - try as you might

May you find that love that won't leave you

May you find it by the end of the day

You won't be lost, hurt, tired and lonely

Something beautiful will come your way

(It'll come your way)

(It'll come your way) Some kind of beautiful

(It'll come your way) Some kind of beautiful

(It'll come your way) Some kind of beautiful

(It'll come your way)

All your friends think you're satisfied

But they can't see your soul, no, no, no

Forgot the time feeling petrified

When they lived alone

If you can't wake up in the morning

'Cause your bed lies vacant at night

If you're lost, hurt, tired or lonely

Can't control it - try as you might

May you find that love that won't leave you

May you find it by the end of the day

You won't be lost, hurt, tired and lonely

Something beautiful will come your way

You won't be lost, hurt, tired and lonely

Something beautiful will come your way


Monday, November 8, 2004

Asik dengar lagu raya jer kat opis nih - tadde lagu lain ke aper?

Tetiba jadik director untuk gathering raya alumni taun nih... proposed director jer baru tapi klaka bila pikir. Am la nih, tetiba call mintak jadik bos. Tak tau aper nih... assistant pon tadak. Tensi aku wehhhh! Aper lagi si Aran la yang jadik mangsa semua pertanyaanku malam semalam....heheh... tetapi hampeh dia satu aper pon tak ingat. Last2 borak jer topik lain, di samping membantu dengan sakit jiwanye dalam proses mengattach fail kat email + register kat jobstreet. Painstakingly done! Tu ler, sahutla seruan kerajaan: celik IT. Sempat gak bagitau pasal Berkat blog ni gak ada link tu kat sini. Pehtu ada program puji memuji art yang ada kat situ plak... termasuk la yang artistic skali... hahah! Weh tengah buat aper tu Aran?? Udah2 la tuh, gi site lain lak. Carik mp3 ker aper ker, leh gak burn cd post ke umah.

Tuesday, November 2, 2004

Raya cookies


Made 3 types of cookies


for this festive season. Not that difficult, searched for recipes online and there I have it 3 big jars of cookies readily available for raya! eheh! I'll have to think of something else for another empty jar.

Cukup kot untuk org datang raya. Lagipon tak ramai datang agaknyer. My house is not a popular one since abah is not here. Kalau datang pon diorang tak makan sangat kuih muih nih. Kena hidang mende lain gak.

Those cookies are for Mueh and Otel to bring back to their places for raya parties (who knows), eating alone during revision, spare food when the wallets don't allow (for a short period of time), etc. Boys will be boys - they eat constantly (although I'd like to refer them as men now since they're both grown ups). Either way they live by good food - something my parents have to fork out every month (myself included)! They don't usually come cheap.... I'm gonna go crazy


Friday, October 22, 2004

Witty Words from Wise Women

"As you climb the ladder of success, don't let the boys look up your dress!" - Jenifer Bunis

"Who ever thought up the word mammogram? Every time I hear it, I think I'm supposed to put my breast in an envelope and mail it to someone." - Jan King

"I'm extraordinarily patient provided I get my own way in the end." - Margaret Thatcher

"Boys will be boys, but girls will be women." - anon

"Always be smarter than people who hire you." - Lena Horne

"The most beautiful words in English language are 'Check Enclosed'." - Dorothy Parker

"Your passion is waiting for your courage to catch up." - Marilyn Greist

"The phrase 'working mother' is redundant." - Jane Sellman

"You see a lot of smart guys with dumb women, but you hardly ever see a smart women with a dumb guy." - Erica Jong

"Infatuation is when you think he's as sexy as Robert Redford, as smart as Henry Kissinger, as noble as Ralph Nader, as funny as Woody Allen, and as atheletic as Jimmy Connors. Love is when you realize that he's as sexy as Woody Allen, as smart as Jimmy Connors, as funny as Ralph Nader, as athletic as Henry Kissinger, and nothing like Robert Redford-but you love him anyway." - Judith Viorst

Thursday, October 21, 2004

Bad Morning

Driving to work didn't have my full attention this morning. I kept on evaluating of what we've achieved so far. I was with the IGP people for corrections on base map they're providing for 2 days.

I found it difficult to talk to them at the same wavelength. Shouldn't they as the consultant figure out what the client wants? Do they even realize how immportant the base map is to the Asset Dept.? If they do, they shouldn't have expected us to not have checked the map for accuracy and presentation the way we do here. We take it seriously. How come they don't? I was astonished the way they expected me to just look over the map a little bit here and there, and expected me to settle at 'Okay la tu, Nuhaa. Takde salah dah kot. Perfect dah ni..' ???! Hello! We don't do random picks here. Everything is double-checked thoroughly. That's what PUAS (under)paid me for.

And they were talking about payment all the time when it was not relevent at the time and at the place. Even though they haven't been paid yet, I have to stress here that the process doesn't involve ICT. If they are talking about payment relevant to then, the base map is not acceptable at the moment so the potion for the base map will not be paid yet, for now. We ARE concern about the unpaid business they are suffering from but all we can do is Hj. Suhaimi to slow talk to Hj. Suffian about it, the one who oversees the contract and everything. We are sure of one thing: they'll be paid within a reasonable period of time.

Oh God! I've had enough of this money talk. Go to Roslan straight la people! Truly he's the one who can really help.

What was agreed on the other day is if the 2 day period is not enough, there'll be additional period to finish the task. They should be coming here today but they were being reluctant yesterday. What the hell is going on? I'm furious at the way they do things - bad work ethics. Where's your integrity?? Your boss has agreed on the way things done last 2 days, my boss has too. And it seems additional days are obviously needed. What are you trying to do? Nak lawan cakap bos ker ha? Tensen aku weh...!!!

There are some corrections we discovered that they'd like to do it back at their office. Fine with me. But I presume they don't expect me to go through the map again. ...*major sigh*....

Although there are some minor corrections that can be done by me, the question is not who can do the job. It's who should do it. They seemed not digesting this.

These are nice people in real life, I'm telling you. But don't confuse this with attitude when it comes to work. When you said you'd do it then do it lah by all means. Gain some trust from your client.

Geram siot. Had to get it all off my chest. There I've done it. I can continue my work peacefully.

Monday, October 18, 2004

Ramadan mulia menjelang lagi....

It's been a year since you came and I'm glad I'm here to have you back again. I'm welcoming you with open arms, I pledge to treat you better before it's to late.


We had a barbeque for breaking the fast yesterday. I spent an hour trying to start the fire and get the barbie ready... Oh what a nightmare! Okay I'm a beginner in this area of expertise so one hour is acceptable, dont' you think? It was a windy afternoon. And I ended up with being terribly smelly.. eeerrrghhhh! (I went to shower right after I finished preparing in the kitchen). Muaz and Ammar looked over the bbq process while I was in the kitchen preparing the gravy. There were some chicken, prawns and cuttlefish. Plus some capsicum, potatoes and a pineapple. I have to say pineapple is my favourite. Cooked to perfection, brownish and glossy, juicy and sweet.... yummy!! The rest wasn't that bad either. I saw clean plates so I did a good job then (heh!).

The day before we had spaghetti with some salad.



Western food are easy to prepare. I love them! But not as much as I love local food of course. I love malaysian food.

What am I doing talking about food in the middle of Ramadan's day?? Must be the vague memory of the weekend has not become vague yet. Ooh yummy pineapple slices!

Friday, October 15, 2004

Posa Besok!

Hari ni ada training untuk staff tingkat 6 kat lab ICT... keh keh.. buleh la tahan. Pastu dah tukar blog add Cik Tipah. Senang jer! Punyela susah payah pusing sana sini padahal mende tu depan mata jer. Camana ntah leh telupa... Cuma blog lama ada problem sket nak delete. Nyampah tul ngan Blogspot nih kengkadang. Takleh cakap lelebih nanti kena gam lakkss..ilang blog kesayangan ku karang..

Anyway ari ni member sekampus dulu email. Hi Cik Siti (Cik Tipah jangan perasan - nih org lain)!!! Tak sangka kite bersua dalam blog walaupun kite takde di situ pada masa tuh (ada kat lab ler..). Ok gak awak email tuh, tau2 jer dah dok kat PJ ek... wah wah wah..merantau jauh nampak... dari Sarawak nun. Raya kang jangan tak balik lak!

Okay. I'm done for today. Should be going on my way home. Ramadan woul dprobably start tomorrow. We'll be off home early during the month - 4.30 instead of the usual 4.45 (pasar ramadan, here comes me!). Need to do some little thing before I hit the road. Was explaining mapping thing to Linda the whole afternoon and I'm quite clueless what to do now, even though I feel that something needed to be done. Ah yes.. the MySQL spatial thing..

I'm off.

Saturday, October 9, 2004

Mini hiatus again!

The common network problem. They were moving stuff to the server room and got confused which cabel was which (I think).

Oh yes, on Wednesday I was on leave to renew my IC. It was a quick process, got there at 8.30 and was told to get back an hour later. Had breakfast and was there again and it was done at 9.30! I wonder if the leave was necessary at all. Went to a car workshop for some oil service for my car. At 11 my mother and I made a trip to Nilai 1 - shopping. Reasonably cheap. I got a bag at RM9.90 and a kebaya at RM37. Also a sweater at RM17. Paid RM20 for my mother's beautiful piece of cloth (for baju kurung). Hmmm.... should've noticed this place earlier...

Was on our way to pick up Ammar at school at 2.15pm. Headed to Domino's to pick up free pizza beforehand. Went to the workshop again to check on father's 4WD. Was back home at 4.30. After savouring the pizza, went straight to bed and woke up at midnight. Found nothing amusing to be done, went to bed again.

Woke up real dizzy and heavy the next day. It was such a good day.

I'm still in love with Swiss Garden Resort Damai Laut.....

Monday, October 4, 2004

Joyous Weekend


Wow I had a blast on the weekend! ICT Family day in Damai Laut, Perak - Swiss Garden Resort & Spa. What a beautiful place! Secluded and tedious road to get to there but beautiful. No mobile network whatsoever which was good in a way. Was lucky to get a room with a sea view from balcony (shared room with Husna). Had fun while I was there...taking pictures of places most of the time with my artistic manual camera... eheh! There were people recording videos as well...can't wait to see the after edit result.

Got back real late yesterday. It could've been 6pm arriving home safe and sound, not 9, hadn't it not because of the spontaneous decision dropping by Lumut! All blame goes to tireless shopping excercise there - we apparently were acting like we haven't seen ikan kering, ikan bilis and seafood snacks before..hahah... The real tourist award would've gone to Thira... poking, gasping, getting excited at everything in sight... hehehehehehehehe.... I didn't buy much, just the common sea shore thingy the locals always sell... snacks and ikan kering..

The time spent in Kamal's car was a sure memorable one of course. We had a hell of a ride. Oh it was fun and exhilarating. Had the chance to explore another side of me and I actually liked it! Surely I wouldn't mind doing it again.

I'm talking about the way he drives you twit!

It's not for the faint-hearted. He's one crazy driver. I don't mind he did it because I trust his judgement so I got nothing to worry about. Spent a few times levitating while on the road... but I'm okay. It's Iti who couldn't stand it.. =) poor Iti... at least kete Kamal tak de ah bau hancing...hahahah...


... The ever cool Liza was trying to get some zzzz but was disrupted by occasional bumps every now and then.... isk isk Kamaaal....


But of course all thanks to Kamal to sustain a 14 hour of driving for that 2 days. A good man with a wicked playful but kind heart. Tenkiu also goes to Iti for the homey drink and for some extra ringgits you spent for me.. eheheheh..lain kali leh banje lagik eh... teehehe....


Big thanks to all the sponsors who made it possible... I love you all


Speech is over. Am so spent and I felt some bones were misplaced waking up this morning. That's what you get when you have fun on weekends....

Monday, September 27, 2004

Gloomy Monday

Got back really late from Taiping yesterday and I still feel oh so tired and spent. Got out of home as early as 6.30am and only back at 7pm. I was the one who was behind the wheel, all the way baby... except the minor trips to my brothers' places nearby, mother took over. Did some shopping, bought mother and me handbags. Parit Buntar offers some of those attractive prices around. Not a happening place but still...

God knows how sleepy I am in this 'wee hour' of office morning. I can't get my brain to work yet. I've been trying to get Rizal on the line but he's unreachable most of the time which makes me all restless and edgy. I can't get my work done if he doesn't hand me over the latest base maps. Now my stomach isn't feeling so good.

I got back at 4pm last Saturday. Was doing the outline for the thing the boss had discussed with us earlier. Am trying to make it a habit, doing it right away or I'd forget/be lost recalling those usually important ifty nifty bits. And I met my bestfriend Amelia afterwards! Had some drinks and took the time to catch up with gossips and news. Turned out she's engaged to Saiful. I don't know him but I'm sure he's okay and both of them are happy together. Also a few of my childhood friends are engaged. It was good to see old friendly faces that day.

I listened to Hero by Enrique Iglesias on my way to work today. I haven't heard that song for a looooong time now. Hmm... must look for it online... heh! But first, washroom awaits.

Wednesday, September 22, 2004

..blah blah....

Just out of the monthly staff meeting. Some interesting issues highlighted. Well it was okay considering how everybody is doing today. It's just me, feeling a little bit weird today, thinking everybody is down for some reason.

Problems on proxy here sent me on mini hiatus for the past week. Also I've finished Honor Lost (or known as Forbidden Love somewhere else) and was outraged about it how the writer describes Islam. It's probably fictional so it infuriated me even more. People do these kind of stuff for a living these days, by creating controversial issues, pointing out views and everything, regardless of sensitivity level which various people have. I don't have a problem with that, in fact I love diversity, makes the world go round. Ms. Khouri has spoken up her voice but I'm sure not everyone is comfortable with some of her opinions. I for one feel that she didn't do her research well and thorough on Islam's history. Even if she did, for me she delibarately puts her words towards downgrading Islam. Hey, it's my faith and belief and I can't help defending...

I understand that the book is about honor killing and the culture that is behind it and how Jordanians react to it. While I agree completely with her that honor killing has its roots in time predated Islam, it's still not right blaming Islam for having founded by 'vicious warriors' and surrounded by it's 'early war and bloody battles history' has endorsed the illigal practice. Now I'm sure every nation on earth has its fair share on warfare, not just Islam. The history tells us that these 'bloody battles' were not initiated by muslims. Furthermore these 'vicious warriors' only existed on battlefields, they were exceptional individuals in their daily lives. Also needless to say and it's crucial to note that Islam promotes peace. Even in battles there are rules and etiquttes to follow. Women and children staying inside homes were unharmed during wars. And warfare should be the last thing on earth muslims should do, is best avoided.

If the book is non-fiction then I'm sorry they had to grow up in Jordan. But if it's not (they're still investigating) then I'm furios at the way she depicts Islam.

Tuesday, September 14, 2004

I love my name

Comparing now and my older times spent on the net, I found myself using my name as my nick/username most of the time now than before. I only used my aliases before it hit me that my name is not as plain as Jane or Joe. So I started to use Nuhaa everywhere and hasn't encountered any troubles since (so far). By that I mean no nuhaa7493 or nuhaa_my_28914y and the like. What I like most is that people can refer me by my real name which I think is pretty appropriate and personal.

I guess why I didn't think of it before is because probably I'm scared of identity theft... okay that sounds too serious, by lighter example: people pretending to be me in chatrooms and using my good name to their favor etc. I've had bits of my fair share here and there. Neopets tastes bittersweet to me.

It's just my nature, being cautious and all. But I've learned that the possibility I got scammed by immatured uncivilized barbarian individuals is almost zero by being polite. People are generally actually kind. I've found an awful lot of them in various online communities. Therefore I don't have much to worry about as long as I play nice.

Be grateful. Grow up. Okay don't. But be good.

Monday, September 13, 2004

4 Gmail invites available.. for now that is....

Logged in the mailbox this morning and found out that I could invite 6 other people. Already used 2. I posted in an alumni's yahoo group and it looks like it's going to take forever to get 4 other replies. Oh whatever. I'm not the one missing the fun... heh!

I just got the base maps from Asset Dept. We only require the base maps not their layer. What are we going to do with assets? We don't know assets management as they clearly do and we won't be interested in doing so anyway. Why it took so long to reach here is not quiet a mystery. I'd say inefficiency in communication. And the tendency of random groundless, not factually-based assumptions which leads to all those accusations. Wehh..kalau ada mende tak paham, just ask/enquire, for the sake of clarification and people can take actions accordingly! Tensi mahhhhh...

A whole month wasted like that.

Wednesday, September 8, 2004

Belated Birthday Present

Received a thumbdrive in a mail yesterday, courtesy of dear brother Otel!! ..ayayayayayayyyaaaaeeeyayayyaeeya....

I'm on top of the world.

Tuesday, September 7, 2004

I have an account!

All thanks to David Marcus, a journalist from Albany, New York for a penpal swap. I've heard about this free Gmail thing about a month ago and didn't really do anything to get it. It was a sudden calling when Baizurah emailed me yesterday. Oh heck, I got to have one too.

So I did a google and came across GmailSwap which I happily abused to get my invitations... heh! Asked Vick also whether he'd heard about it (he's an IT project manager currently Sabah-based) to which he answered yes and his guys were looking at it whether to use it or not. And he asked one of his guy Shahnaz to invite me.. hehehehehehe... I couldn't help smiling. Although the invite hasn't come in yet but it's okay. I've already have one account, I'm so bloated. I should treat myself another McD's meal.




1 GB people... email me all you want...

I don't know how long the gratuit thingee will last. I'm officially one of the beta tester...heh! Not that I'm going to test anything...

Monday, September 6, 2004


Someone just emailed me telling me about it and flaunting it like hell. Arrghhhhh!!! I want that account too. 1 GB, who doesn't want it is crazy big time I'm telling you.


I want it so bad.

Recruiting Committe

Just had been accepted to the committee. This one is Women Who Believe online group. Have been in the group for more than 3 months now but had't really done anything active. So I though recruiting wouldn't take so much of my time. Since I have to submit assignments weekly to SEA Graphics Committe.

Oh I love being in an online group. Feels like I'm contributing something to people eventhough I don't know them. That's the idea that I like very much. I'm not much of a social type of person. I don't mingle and blend that easily. I'm quite shy at times. Confined spaces make me dizzy. I don't react well with crowds. This is a good way to interact with people (globally) for me. I laugh often. I treasure my privacy. I appreciate my circle of friends. And I believe we can get away with almost anything with genuine heartfelt smiles. Maybe because I'm a good listener, I don't talk often so people tend to think I'm a snob?... heheh.. I don't mind. Free country.

Visited a lot of interesting sites today through webrings. Invited them to join WWB along the way.

Got myself a pretzel on Sunday.


Cinnamon & sugar! Yummy....

Wednesday, September 1, 2004

Simply Enchanting Angels

Applied to join the online group and was added a couple of hours later! That was quick!! Had to also join one of the committe - picked Graphics Committee. I used to love creating graphics and I can't wait to experiment things soon.

It's been a while and I have lost my touch although not entirely but I'd like to see me loving and having fun with graphics. I was addicted at some point a year back but got cut off from PSP due to crashed pc at home. This will be a good time to make a come back don't you think?

Also I've discovered Yuko Ohigashi today. What a lovely girl! At 17 she's already composing songs and performing at concerts. She's a composer-pianist.

Tuesday, August 31, 2004


I'm not in the mood for merdeka actually. I'm proud to be malaysian but today I'm feeling down.

Oh yes, a kind friend was being very kind yesterday...heheh... Thank you Is! Wait for another list lah then you'll see they're not all jiwang.

I'm at my workplace now actually. Just taking a little time to say I'm not feeling well. Done some readings just now and I'm going to do some more.

I'm out.


Saturday, August 28, 2004

Happy Thoughts

I feel so blessed - having great feamily and great friends. Mother got me a new pair of cloths. Ammar gave me little cactus - not good for feng shui (heh!) but I appreciate it nonetheless (he's my brother). Otel is going to get me a thumbdrive!!! I can't stop smiling...

Kak Iti's first ever nephew was born on my birthday at 5.30pm! So now she's officially an aunt... ngeeeeeee....

Thursday, August 26, 2004

Forbidden Love by Norma Khouri

Look at what I've just discovered! I read a post in a BookCrossing forum the other day about this non-fiction book was in fact a fiction, resulting her book withdrawn from sale. The publisher recommends bookstores to do the same and has refused to publish the sequel. I read in local newspaper yesterday saying the same thing. Norma lived in Chicago when she was 3! Not in Jordan!! And there was no Dalia.

From back cover:

"Author Norma Khouri and her friend Dalia were like sisters. Since the age of three they were inseparable, sharing in all the childhood joys that a modern, middle-class life in Amman, Jordan, had to offer. By all appearances, they seemed very much alike: Like most Arabs daughters they lived under the jurisdiction of their male brethren, and each was expected to enter a marriage based on family honor - not love. But Norma's family was Christian, Dalia's was Muslim, and each of the girls was bound to age-old religious customs and traditions that would someday tear them apart.

Dalia is twenty-five when she falls in love with Michael, a Catholic. Their relationship is more than just a crime in the name of Islam: It is grounds for an "honor killing", a practice that remains legal in Jordan today. Still, Dalia would have sacrificed everything - her relations, her beliefs, even her homeland - to be with Michael... until Dalia's family finds out about her haraam, or forbiden love.

NORMA KHOURI is a poet and author of short fiction. As a result of the events recounted in Honor Lost, she was forced to leave Jordan. She lives in Australia."

I have the book here with me actually - part of a bookring by fellow bookcrosser, but haven't read it yet. I'm a non-fiction lover. It's frustrating to learn this new discovery done by an Australian press. It was made public like a month ago. AARRGGGHHHH!!!

I've read some articles on this. Her lawyer said that she's compiled crucial evidence to prove she did live in Jordan between 1973 and 2000. But everyone is somehow conviced that she didn't based on 18-month investigation by the press.

I'm going to just quote from here:

The following comment comes from a young, Jordanian Christian woman, so I hope it will be regarded as useful insight.

I have not personally read Khouri's book, I know people who have (Jordanian women) and who were shocked by the exaggeration it holds. Anyhow, the author can write whatever she wants to, as long as she does not attempt to convince people of a lie. The lie is not about "crimes of honour" which do exist not only in Jordan but sadly in a lot of countries. The lie is that Khouri only lived in Jordan until she was three, that is when she emigrated with her family to the USA. The whole story is a fabrication, and this was revealed by the Australian Sydney Morning Herald, in collaboration with a Jordanian NGO, which by the way is fighting against the so-called crimes of honour. Please take some time to know the full truth, check the Jordan Times newspaper online, or the Sydney Morning Herald.

Things are not perfect in Jordan, nor anywhere, but I am proud to be a Jordanian woman, conservative but not oppressed. If Khouri's aim is to advocate women's rights, it would not have been through a scandalous and profit-oriented manner, but rather through political and social activism.

Tania Haddad

Amman - Jordan

I agree with Tania.

-some links for info-

Random House Australia | Middle East Information Center | The Daily Star | ABC Online | Absolute Write | Religion News Blog

** The book is also sold under the title Honor Lost

Little Online Birthday Bash - heh!


Happy birthday to me

Happy birthday to me

Happy birthday to meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Happy birthday to me!


Not planning on major celebrations or anything though... Time for self-reflection. Hmmmm... do I blog too often??

Wednesday, August 25, 2004

Nak makan KFC!!!

Ntah dari mana gian datang tetiba nih. Ngabihkan duit jer pasni! Aper kena ntah. Member nak belanja. Ok duit... hahahahahahaa...

Tuesday, August 24, 2004

Taking a break from work

Visited Friendster just now. I'm just so amazed at the number of friends some people have. Memory lane visited as well. Couldn't help smiling reading everyone's testimonials on each other.

Ooh! Will be going out with a friend this evening. Will keep it casual and fun for both of us.

Managed to spend the entire morning in Kak Izan's room discussing GIS setup. The more I get to it and understand it, the more I find it interesting. Open GIS is not that common here in the Malaysia but I'd like it to be. Cuts down the cost and is effective at the same time. Wonder the GM would agree to the company's proposal that was presented yesterday?? Microsoft is already rich so why add up some more to their already full bank vaults?

Back to work. I'm out.

Monday, August 23, 2004

And again I wish it was Sunday I woke up to

Went to bed really late last night. Had to have this important conversation with a good friend. In short I only slept for 2 hours. I feel like my eyes are going to pop out already. Thought I'd be late for work but arrived just in time (it's a wonder). Very light traffic, truly I don't know how that happened.

Last Saturday night was a good night for me. My former classmate had a wedding and quite a number of former classmates turned up there. I hadn't seen those people like in 5 years, how different they were then. The bride for example looked georgous herself. Almost everyone couldn't believe their eyes when the pair walked into the hall. Some of the guys even talked about how regretful they were not realizing the beauty sooner and making effort to win her heart when they had the chance (haha!) - too late guys. The handsome doctor has snatched her first!

There were some good friends of mine there as well. Learned so much of their lives and what's-going-on. Most of them have just started working or are going to finish studies by the end of the year. Listened to a shocking confession as well from a very good friend on the way home. I believe everything happens for a reason. To this person, I believe your time will come and then you'll see everything will fall into places. Life is full of simple pleasure. I think someday your happiness will present itself at the time you least expected. You're such a wonderful person lah, life should treat you good! Best wishes.

I got back home at nearly 2am that night and mother was worried sick... heheh... didn't mean that to happen. I thought Ammar had told her I was still with friends. Oh well, things happen.

During the wedding also, there were questions like "Ko bila lagi?" and the like bombarded to each other. And everyone would say "Lama lagiiiii...". At this age, marriage's when's and who's (is that english?) come out quite often. And there were these certain people kept asking me whether I have a boyfriend of not. I'd simply say no but they wouldn't believe me. It's quite complicated. Technically I have a boyfriend but when it comes to feelings, I don't know where I stand. I don't feel wanted. I don't feel desired. I don't feel appreciated. I've been feeling like this since early of the year. The distance and busy work schedules really taking its toll on us.

I am tired. This is sad. Why didn't I tell him it's over?? Like I said - it's complicated. Don't ask.

Friday, August 20, 2004

friday morning

Have some thoughts on my mind about something that need to be expressed but I think I'll do it later/tomorrow/next week/etc. At the moment I'm feeling a little bit guilty and a little bit upset. Also a little bit hopeless. And a whole of stressed out. Never mind. Wanna have a look at my desktop??

When it's dreaming I'm taking it back home with me:

...with a bin full of trash....

During the World War III:

When they look at it, colleagues ask me questions like "Is it Linux??" etc - hmmm.... is it Linux??? muaahahahahahaa

I love my WinAmp skin.

Wednesday, August 18, 2004

pics are up

Didn't take so much effort. So it was a quick process.

Am so full. Pizzas on Kak Izan (tenkiuuuuuuu...).

pics scanned - finally!

Only the recent convo pics. The scanner quality must be way below average. Luckily I'm patient enough to not to be too grumpy about it.

p/s: don't look, I haven't uploaded them yet! eheh!

Saturday, August 14, 2004

Operation SandStorm aka Clean-Up-The-Office-and-Get-Organized-People!

Today should be a gotong-royong day, said boss. Came to office wearing my comfy casual pants and a shirt. What a perfect office attire! Spent the rest of the time reading (managed to finish 4 Letters of Love - finally!) and have already started Fairy Tale of New York.

"Cornelius Christian, an expatriate New Yorker, is returning to his native land when his wife dies aboards ship. As he re-enters New York he encounters a funeral director with whom he reluctantly takes a job to pay for the burial of his wife. He quickly meets a beautiful grieving widow, Mrs Fanny Sourpuss, and plunges into a wild affair with her, followed by another with a gentle girl from the Bronx who had been his childhood sweetheart, and another with the wife of his boss."


Okay, just visited a gay blog. I think he's a malay. Or is he chinese? It was inspiring in spite of the blogs were mostly about flirting and getting laid preferably with straight men! haha! I was amused and the fact that he wrote personal stuff like that is very brave and blunt. Outspoken. I admire that, not his constant sexual activity. A blog has served its purpose.

It's Friday the 13th!!

It's my first actually realizing that it's THE day. I never thought about it but I came across a blog that mentioned it today. What an interesting post it was. I don't believe in those bad luck stuff. They're just coincidents, that's all.

Fantasia Barrino's I Believe played on air while I was driving home a few days ago. It was on a chart climbing fast. I love the song! I love the way she sings it. Pure talent she has.

Hmm.. I just noticed Kamal isn't around today. No wonder I feel so unbelievably comfortable at my desk! And I don't have to be aware of his whereabouts constantly..heheh.... He's a nuisance. Specially born to reduce my very work effeciency...just like the mad copy machine (hasn't been replaced, only repaired). Suka tarik kusi org ke blakang!!! Nyampah wehhhh...uwaaa!!!


Oh yes, changed the blog address yet again....*sigh* The same brother had a very keen focused alert pair of eyes yesterday. He returned to my desk about 5 and he managed to take a peek. hhhmmppphhhhfffff!!! Never mind all is well. No more peeking.

Red is the theme today. I feel red... heh! Never mind.

Am listening to Come What May - tragic love song, just because it's on Moulin Rouge. Is there really such powerful true love? I wonder... I have a boyfriend and he's a good person mind you. But I don't feel like he's a bf of mine.

I'm out.

Thursday, August 12, 2004

sudden move!

aiyoh... my dear brother has taken a look at this blog!!! AAAARRRRGGHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This is not meant to be read by family members, that's the point of having a blog.

penat weh pindah mindah nih! kena buat balik....well, almost. All the comments are lost... except 1 for testing purpose....

Wednesday, August 11, 2004

Some late add-ons

Took me almost 2 hours to add the comment + archive links. Well, it should have been easy if I knew CSS. Had to understand it first and how Blogger works before I could make any changes... Now that they're working there nicely I don't want to think about it anymore, just posting from now on.

My eyes are tired and my brain already has been relentlessly reminding me of the comfort of home.. aiyah! such nuisance is everywhere.

A guy friend just asked to meet up. What a bad timing. nak balik!

Tuesday, August 10, 2004

Convo v1.0

Just got back yesterday from convocation week. I wasn't really up to it, I thought I wouldn't enjoy it. How wrong I was, how wrong I was indeed. It was my first version of convo ceremony and I hope there'll be a few more in store for me. I'm not much of a writer but I'll write anyway. It's my blog...

I refused mother to buy new clothes. I didn't tell people about it unless they asked me. I didn't know what to say if they did. I wasn't up to convo last week. I took 2 days off just for this and on Friday morning my family and I were off to Penang - my grandma's hometown and where my former campus is located where I spent almost 5 years of my life, USM.

We went to Mak Njang's first for the robe and other convo stuff. Abang Izwan was very kind to collect those for me. There were a couple of invitation cards, official books and receipts apart from the robe and the mortar board. Mother was the one who was making sure everything was there, not me. I wasn't interested. I was still trying to reason my convocation. I didn't excel in studies - just on the average bar. What the celebration should be about?

Ammar was going through the book I didn't know what he was looking for. It wasn't until he showed me my name in the book that I suddenly saw myself sitting in the hall and walking on the stage and receiving my honors degree. I could only imagine how many people could only wish to be in my place.

Upon arriving at grandma's we were welcome by Tok and Cik Dah. We had to rest because of the tiring 4 hour journey we just had. I took the time to watch a movie on VCD to shake convo off my mind. I didn't want to think about it. I had to go to the rehearsal at 8 pm and I was too clueless to go alone so I rang my friend. Good news! She also had her rehearsal at 8! So arrangement of when and where were made and I was off to shower.

When I was in the hall they were showing the places around USM on 2 big screens. And it hit me again.Those were the places I frequented during the 5 years. I knew every road, every path, every tree, the hills and the lakes. I recognized them in my heart. This was the place where I gained knowledge. The place where by far I've experienced life the most. And I was going to leave it and it'd become a memory of the past if it hadn't been for the convocation, a chance for me to say thank you, my utmost gratitude.

On Sunday, 2.30 pm, I was already in the hall. Sitting on my right was my former classmate. As I looked around and when my eyes were fixed on the stage, "Finally!.." I said to her. I meant to say finally I was in the hall despite all the earlier usual commotion (the robe, last minute preparation, etc). She said back to me, "Yes, after years of studying, we're finally here. Worth every struggle." Shortly after a little chinese lady came and took her seat on my left. She was excited and all smiles to the end. We talked a little, she was friendly and helpful with my robe. I realized how important that day must have been to all the graduates. Why didn't I feel it as important? I must've had missed something big.

When the ceremony started, then I understood as the Pro-Chancellor walked towards his seat escorted by the senates and the deans. I was amazed by their achievements, all shown by their robes. These VVIPs only attend VVIP's functions, I thought. It showed me how grand the ceremony was with their presence.

I was so happy and thankful when I was on the stage. I was fortunate to have realized what was it all about before it was too late. I even look good in the pictures.

The speeches afterwards were uplifting, inspiring and touching at the same time especially the one made by the Tan Sri ("I welcome you all to the fellowship of educated men and women.") It had reawaken the burning passion of learning I've always had and to continuously better myself, the achievement to be proud of. Some people measure success materially but I wasn't raised that way.

Some of my relatives came afterward to congratulate me. I received 4 bouquets of flowers + 1 stalk of pink carnation from little cousin.


I felt blessed, truly I do still.

Thursday, August 5, 2004


I had fun chat with a new friend online this morning. Not that I didn't do my work but it was enlightening to know that a person could be that polite and bright and alive and gentle. Okay I'm way overboard here but I've never had the pleasure to have a good chat like I had for a long time.


Also, I heard that they are going to get us a new copy machine!! Now THAT is what I call a good news. I hate the one which we have right now. I don't know why we couldn't have a better one before. I could die just to wait for the current machine to work.... It's that torturing....


Wednesday, August 4, 2004

Malas nak ke konvo

I'm supposed to be going to my convocation day but I'm abit reluctant. There's not much to celebrate anyway. I won't accept flowers on that day. This is depressing to talk about.

Had an alive meeting with GeoPlanning today...oh well. They had given us the wrong set of data! Like my boss said, we're running in a circle with no apparent destination. The destination is there but it's unreacheable at this point due to this careless mistake. That leaves me with no actual work to do ( buat keje nih). It's going to affect my very effeciency! cheeewaaaaaah! hmmm.... (Am I too focused on work?) Delay hurts. *sigh* (Did I just sigh because there'll be definitly less work???? Do I like the stress that comes with it???!? Am I normal?) Yeah well I love being busy, keeps my mind off miserable things.

I have a complicated life.

Tuesday, August 3, 2004

Tech Support for Husband software

Dear Tech Support,

Last year I upgraded from Boyfriend 5.0 to Husband 1.0 and noticed a distinct slow down in overall system performance - particularly in the Flower and jewellery applications, which operated flawlessly under Boyfriend 5.0.

In addition, Husband 1.0 uninstalled many other valuable programs, such as Romance 9.5 and Personal Attention 6.5, and then installed undesirable Programs such as football 5.0, NBA 3.0. and Golf Clubs 4.1.

Conversation 8.0 no longer runs and Housecleaning 2.6 simply crashes the system. I've tried Running Nagging 5.3 to fix these problems, but to no avail. What can I do?




Dear Desperate,

First keep in mind, Boyfriend 5.0 is an Entertainment Package, while Husband 1.0 is an Operating System. Please enter the command: "http:I Thought You Loved Me.htm" and try to download Tears 6.2 and don't forget to install the Guilt 3.0 update. If that application works as designed, Husband 1.0 should then automatically run the applications Jewellery 2.0 and Flowers 3.5. But remember, overuse of the above application can cause Husband1.0 to default to Grumpy Silence 2.5, Happy Hour 7.0, Pub 7.2 or Beer 6.1.

Beer 6.1 is a very bad program that will download the SnoringLoudly Beta. Whatever you do, DO NOT install Mother-in-law 1.0 (it runs a virus in the background that will eventually seize control of all your systemsources). Also, do not attempt to reinstall the Boyfriend 5.0 program. These are unsupported applications and will crash Husband 1.0.

In summary, Husband 1.0 is a great program, but it does have limited memory and cannot learn new applications quickly. You might consider buying additional software to improve memory and performance. We recommend Hot Food 3.0 and Lingerie 7.7.

Good Luck,


* Got this from alumni's mailing list (best lak baca). I'm NOT married.

Monday, August 2, 2004

not so typical monday this time

Every beginning of the week really gets me I don't know what to do about it. The boss is on 2-day leave, all the better..heheheheh.... I was planning to test the database with MapServer remotely but apparently the server is having some problems. Capet said the hardisk is corrupted?? How did THAT happen??? It hasn't been used properly fo the net, only for testing and I haven't touched anything unless mounting some harmless files like a week ago.... Luckily he's here to fix the problem. Aiyah..the thing needs reformatting. Serious problems must be. Well, let him, the linux master do the work. I'll do the rest after it gets fixed. That means delay in production... oh wutteva.. like I care at the moment (heh!). I'm supposed to be on my way home right now. But being a good employee and all, I'll stay until 7 to do some work. Hey, I love working.. say what ever you want to say.....

Oh yes, I redid my room over the weekend. It was fun and tiring at the same time. I got an almost satisfying result. At least the furniture aren't at the same place as before. I wish I could paint the wall in red! Imagine what drastic and bold effect would that be... hmmm.. okay I'll think of a softer color. Any color other than white which the room has already had since forever. Am afraid that red would've made my room look like a Taj Mahal's sultan's waiting room.

For the record, I'm not angry anymore. Not that I've accepted it all but I don't want my brain to explode for not so intelligent reason. Might as well read a book and pass them around - that's what happiness and real satisfaction mean to me. I feel quite perky today, don't know where that came from. But having a good day is valuable to me and I'd like to think I've spent the day well.

Oh yes, I got a mysterious phone call just now. Claimed that he got the number from me. Huh??! Hello??!! I haven't been giving out my numbers to anyone recently. What a lame thing to say that we met recently in KLCC. It's been like a year and a half I last stepped my foot there! Whoever that was... I kindly ask you to leave me alone. Got another call. What's with this guy?? Simply go away please. Leave me the birds and the trees... eh teramik lirik lagu lak...eheh!

Saturday, July 31, 2004


Everything has limits isn't it? Friends should be just friends. I don't know why he asks me out every week. I don't feel good turning him down. What's with the hand holding? What's with the kisses on the cheek? What's with the phone calls? I totally have no idea what's he doing!! I'm so angry that he does those things he does. I mean, this is WRONG!! I need to straighten things up. Why does it have to be like this? I've been trying so hard to avoid anything like this. Why does it have to happen to me? I am angry.

Wednesday, July 28, 2004

Tikus Itam

Yeah well.... it's already 7 pm and I haven't reached home yet! All these due to some stupid tedious free web hosting I had to do which led me to this newfound definitions of boredom and frustation.

Helped a colleague to set up her first blog. It wasn't that bad but it wasn't that easy for her too. Ahh...the novelty of HTML really caught her eyes. Reminded me of my first attempt of HTML a few years back. Now it's all wasted.

Didn't do any real work today due to boss and other colleagues MIA. Did some GIS work but had to stop halfway. Okay I'm chasing the time.

bla..bla..bla... da da dim dum dum....

I'm out.

Friday, July 23, 2004

Hoobastank - The Reason

I'm not a perfect person

There's many things I wish I didn't do

But I continue learning

I never meant to do those things to you

And so I have to say before I go

That I just want you to know

I found a reason for me

To change who I use to be

A reason to start over new

And the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you

It's something I must live with everyday

And all the pain I put you through

I wish that I could take it the way

And me the one who catches all your tears

That's why I need you to hear

I found a reason for me

To change who I use to be

A reason to start over new

And the reason is you

And the reason is you

And the reason is you

And the reason is you

I'm not a perfect person

I never meant to do those things to you

And so I have to say before I go

That I just want you to know

I found a reason for me

To change who I use to be

A reason to start over new

And the reason is you

I found a reason to show

A side of me you didn't know

A reason for all that I do

And the reason is you

**Some people wouldn't agree that this song is good. Well it's one of my favorite and that's a good reason to put it here, good enough for me.

Monday, July 19, 2004

Typical Monday

Wish it was a Sunday I woke up to this morning. I had a weird dream last night. It was about my father, quite sad but they say what you dream is actually the opposite of what's going to happen. So I'm looking forward to hear good news soon... bila la abah boleh balik umah nieeeeee.....

Mother + I went to Bandar Puncak Alam to take the keys of her new house! It was very small, I doubt it that we could all live there, 6 of us, all grown ups. We won't fit there. The place is good for 2 people only looking at how small it is. The first thing I noticed was the kitchen. It was so small I don't think the fridge could go in there (camana nak masak ni??). And also the bathrooms. I don't like the toilet bowls, must change them to other types of bowls! Everything else is functioning well I guess. While we were there we couldn't figure out how to bring all those stuff in our current house to there because there simply will be not enough space for them! My father's book collection alone would take the entire room. My mother's cutlery + dishes (+ tupperware...banyak weh..). Also our bed sheets and curtains and comforters and etc etc. And our computers and gadgets and stuff... Okay I'll stop worrying. Not that we're going to move in there, not final at least.

Okay I'm all blown up today with our GIS. The boss wants it to be web based. I agree, I can see where's he heading. It's running quite okay but I'm thinking of using open source stuff so it'll cost much less. I'm stuck with projection (okay only GIS ppl understand what I'm blabbering about here =D). The maps won't come out but the background is there. I think it came out but the projection was wrong. And I'm seriously considering my problem is caused by our non-earth maps. I should convert it to earth, shouldn't I? I'll try that later.

That should bring me back to work. I'm out.

Friday, July 16, 2004

Today's Friday...

...and I luuuuurrrrvvvveee Fridays!!!! Will probably go to a some-flower-landscaping-thing carnival tomorrow with mom. Oh I can't wait.

Got back from office late yesterday. Was playing around with this GIS thing and it's killing me slowly everyday. But I like it. I'm one of those crazy mad people who loves working, slogging my butt off. I like being busy, makes me feel like I'm important or something..heheh...

I was visiting a site yesterday (sajer ngulat), there were lots of blinkies there. Oh how I love them. They 're the cutest thing. Reminds me of how much I enjoyed creating graphics for my site 2 years back. I love making graphics actually but don't have the time. It was my favourite activity on computer. Can't commit to anything else now except to work. How sad that is, like I don't have a life yeah? My work is my life now. I'm totally going to eat and breath GIS! haha!

Another book came in my mailbox yesterday. Life of Pi. Am excited to receive the book, will read it soon. That makes it 4 books currently I'm holding to pass them on.

* The Secret WIfe of King George IV - finished this in a day, an excelent read!

* She's Come Undone - this one is hard to digest, have been on it since 1st July

* Four L etters of Love - just started reading

* Life of Pi - putting it on top of my to be read pile

Signing off....

Wednesday, July 14, 2004

stepping in...

Okay so this will be my online journal from now on. I already have an online journal but I'm going to stop journaling there and continue it here. Or should I say blogging?...oh whatever.... Since it's a little bit tedious doing it manually, I'll just use this blogger thingy to speed things up abit. Also I may move my website to here, slowly that is. I did it when I had all the time in the world and I thought I would be playing with graphics and all and publishing them there. No time now since I have a very tight schedule, both at work AND at home. sigh

What a painful work to set it up! Took me nearly a day to find a suitable skin. And all these skins, they don't provide link for comments. So I thought okay fine, I'll add the comment thing later. So I grab a few codes to try on my dear newly established blog. I decided to go for one skin. Skin was up. Comments link next. I had to struggle a with great difficulty and it was a huge pain in the ass. After some time messing with the code, yay it was a success!!! Was so happy I didn't see there was no archives link in the code! duh...

So I had to try to put the link there. It was a complete mess even though it wasn't supposed to be that hard. Oh well, my eyes + my brain must've had enough for the day then. Thinking that I should take a break, I went out for lunch. When I came back, I changed the entire skin with the one link (the one I like of course) with archives. Comments will go in much much later I guess.

I'm still a blogger newbie so I'll wait for some time before I make changes. It's running fine at the moment so no worries. For the blog, tq blogspot. And for the skin, I'd be forever grateful to the creator for providing it for free. Okay I'm out.