Thursday, March 30, 2006

Sick and upset

I have a fever, a flu and sore throat today - with occasional cough. They always come in a package don't they?

Great. Just great. And I talked to Ken last night and he thinks I'm exaggerating. I just can't believe he said that. Why should I exeggerate about my health? Last time I had fever was last year, when I was recovering from the kidney thingy, around March. And it wasn't because I was unhealthy even. It was the temporary side effect after the procedure done. And it was such a bad fever, 40 degree C! And it lasted like 4 or 5 days.

I was so upset last night I hung up. No not the slam the phone thing but more subtle way of telling him I needed to go to sleep. I shouldn't be so nice to people lah.

Wednesday, March 29, 2006

MPH is on sale

Oh my god. Just right after I've purchased computer related books from them..... You know right these type of books are not cheap. Mau rabak poket blouse cumilku.... And Mueh has asked an aeroplane related book as his gift for doing his best in SPM. And you know these type of books are not cheap also............


And I thought I could spend a little on lingerie. It's been a while.


What to do.


The sale is insane. I'm sooooooooo itchy right now looking at the 25% discounts. Some of the books I've been wanting for so long now also made it in the list..... Aiyak!! Major dilemma here.

Right now I'm hoping somehow in some sort of magical hubla hubla way some angel come down from the above and just give me a hundred bugs to spend! Or maybe two. This is how desperate and restless I am.

This is pointless brag lah... Like I can get something out of it. My birthday isn't until August. It's not likely people will surrender to my wishes now.


And for once I end my post with a big major sigh


Monday, March 27, 2006

I have to spread the word. Because I belive it's true.

The starved me

Well I've noticed that I'm constantly hungry these days. For example, last night. I had an early dinner at 6. Then around 10 I had my second dinner. Then in the middle of the night, I still felt like munching on something. So I fried some chicken nuggets.



It should've been deep fried but what the heck. It's still called frying right....heh!

The delish chilli sauce. Get this one people. Really it's one of a kind. But they're kind of difficult to get. People in the northern area might have seen it.


And all the nuggets in its glory...


Kind of fun actually snapping pics every now and then. Even when it's totally out of the topic here.

The hibiscus blooming like crazy along KESAS. Bet you've never noticed it before. Yea people tend to leave the details out when it's excatly the one that makes up life. I was in fact surprised to see them, even when I've been a regular KESAS traficker since January...eheh.... It's wonderful to see what a camera can do to you. It makes your eyes to be far more alert.


The regular view from where my car is parked every damn working day. Oh yea my dashboard light looks funny today. Half of it is not working. How the heck did that happen?? It was working fine last week. So now I can only see my speed meter up to 80kmph.. then no light and there it is again at 120kmph all the way up. that a sign of any kind? jeng jeng jeng.....


And that's me laughing this morning at fellow colleagues walking towards our beloved office. They were actually making faces and giving signs since I was still in the car. That cracked me up. I can laugh easily. I'm the most easy to please people on earth you could find your entire life. Ok I'm so high right now I don't know why because it's Monday. I'm even clad in black today, the colour for the mourners. Shouldn't I get a monday blues or something? Maybe because I have a sexy red lacey little top on today underneath the long black jacket.


Or maybe it's the Power Root I just washed down my nasi goreng with... hahahahahahhaha!

Friday, March 24, 2006

What do you see?

*from forwarded email

1. Open up your Microsoft Word
2. Type 'Q33 NY' ... 'Q33 NY' is the flight number that crashed the WTC tower on 9/11
3. Highlight and change the font size, say 70
4. Highlight and change the font to Wingding
5. What do you see?

This is freaky!

Thursday, March 23, 2006


What I had for breakfast today. So comey laaaa... bersinar-sinar!


So people kalau dah malas sangat nak masak pepagi buta, go get the instant thingy kat supemaket. Bila mandi, kukus. Kuar bilik air dah siap. Sedap pon sedap pau nih....


What I had for breakfast today. So comey laaaa


So people kalau dah malas sangat nak masak pepagi buta, go get the instant thingy kat supemaket. Bila mandi, kukus. Kuar bilik air dah siap. Sedap pon sedap pau nih....

Wednesday, March 22, 2006

Tears of joy

Yesterday marked the day when abah came home finally. For good.

It's just so weird having a man in the house again since I've been only with mak for over four years now.

I feel like an invisible weights has been lifted off my shoulders.

I have so many feelings inside of me and joy is definitely one of them. I'm just speechless.

Monday, March 20, 2006

The books have arrived

Yea bebeh! I wasn't expecting this and this so soon, not until the next two weeks. Like I can wait forever... Well I'm glad that they've made it home. To me.

Now the piles of unreads will keep on mounting I don't care. Yesterday we went to KLIA to send Acik and Nadia off, couldn't help to stop by the bookstore there. Of course I didn't get anything since the price there is RM10 expensiver than common place. I looked at the books and most of the time I shouted silently on top of my lungs "I want that, I want this, I want those!". Realizing that I'm not going to put them in good use, unless if leaving them on the shelf to dust is considered good, so I walked away lah. Anyway, the book I soooooooo desperately want to buy AGAIN hasn't been successfully bought yet - I have a mata keranjang for books... kehkeh... I always end up buying the not intended ones. Talk about maintaining your calmness and composure when faced with your most desired. Oh well.

Friday, March 17, 2006

Commonweatlh Games

I saw the Commonwealth Games Opening Ceremony the other day. Well sort of accidentally actually, didn't know there was a CG coming...hehe.. bad commonwealth citizen. Anyways, so there I was watching the live broadcast halfway watching the queen giving her speech. And then there was this lady singer, I was so stunned with her voice I stop what I was doing then and went closer to the tv screen. I didn't know who she was and when it was over they thanked her or something and I heard Delta Goodrem. So naturally, being a sucker to a good voices on earth that I am.... heheh... I downloaded the song. There were plenty of them online lah.

I've heard of Delta before but I thought she was into electronics or something.... ahaha... the sound of her name sounds like one so I just malas to do research I just assumed. Well biasa laaa... we're not that exposed to aussie singers aren't we all?

The opening ceremony was spectacularly spectacular! Now I know why malaysian government spent so much on it when the game was held here in 1998. The white elephant is still there along the Federal Highway, near the Batu Tiga toll. The commonwealth nations just want to outdo each other lah. Spent so much for one glorious ceremony. Or maybe the queen attends it everytime, to impress her I guess? Anyway I don't know, did we get praises for our CG Opening Ceremony last time??? Hmmmm.... tak ingat plak.... I don't know how we did it last time because I was busy for SPM that year. Did someone sing?

Together We Are One

Here we are sharing our lives
We made it through the good and bad times
And still we stand with hope in our hearts
No matter what we will play our part

And now we've come so far
One chance to touch a star
Go higher and higher

Find your guiding inspiration
In a place where dreams are made
With a lifetime's preparation
It's no time to be afraid
Put our differences behind us
While we're shining like a sun
See what we've all become
Together we are one

Deep inside your heart and soul
You work so hard to reach your goal
With every step, with every breath
You gave it all till there is nothing left

Seek out the strength to win
No thoughts of giving in
Go higher and higher

Thursday, March 16, 2006

Let's see your stress level



"The pictures are non-animated pictures. They are related to your pressure level, if you see them to move, then that means you have pressure currently. The speed of the moving is the level of your pressure. The higher that moving speed, the higher pressure you have. Most children and old men only see the pictures are not moving and keep still. I saw them move in a slow motion that means I have a bit pressure currently. Test yourself regularly with these pictures to know you better, sometimes, it is good to have an appropriate pressure to push us to do better, but too much pressure can cause us to the end of the edge, thus be relaxed when you know you have too much pressure inside!"

I declare the month of April is the month of Hoobastank!

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

I miss reading!!!

How I miss the times when I got a good book in my hand and just lay down and read read read...

I'm so nearing deadline on work and right now that's the only thing that matters here. Everything else tolak tepi dulu. Including my itchiness to get my claws on books. I have a few arriving soon from fellow bookcrossers, the ones that I really really want to read. I have unread ones piling up in my room. How sad. Reading Lolita In Tehran. The Acid House. The ones coming includes Interview With Vampire, Hiroshima + The Five People You Meet In Heaven.

I now wish I had more time. I wish I had more me. So many things I want to do but so little time. How am I going to enjoy life if it continues this way.

Saturday, March 11, 2006

Night chat

I talked on the phone last night with Ken. I mean all night long. Few people can survive a night like that you know. Some people just can't tahan the kemengantukan yang melanda. I didn't have enough sleep the night before yet I survived.

It's not like it's a battle between us or anything to tengok sape ngantuk dulu. It's just we had fun talking and talking and talking... Before your corrupted minds getting any corrupted ideas, let me tell you that the conversation last night was fun, decent, intelligent and engaging ok. The topics seemed to fall right into place so smoothly. You'll know instantly when you click with someone. Well online at least. He did the talking and I did the critics... eheheheh... what fun! And if you happen to know me offline, you could've guessed I laughed alot. He was concern for my cheeks tak lenguh ke gelak banyak sangat... eheheheh... watever la dear fren.

I love to have things like this happen once in a while. It takes my mind off things. Big time. And it's certainly refreshing to know that there's someone ready to listen and not being judgmental about it. Last time I did this was with what's-his-name-I-forgot.... ahahaaha.... Yea well not everyone I had been in contact in is still around. But it was memorable. Something to reminisce on when you're older and can tell your children and little granchildren you've done this and that and start challenging them to do the same.... keskeskes.... my little evil plan to scrutinize the pockets of my own future children on phone bills. Too bad. Hey I can be nice. Try me.

Hmm... I wish I had the phone talk with a female friend. Imagine how that could've turned out. Catty gossips and kutukan tahap langit ke tujuh kot, and will include not so intelligent chat since we'll climb our way back in to ooohh's and aahhhh's of really juicy gossips whenever we got off topic. But absent female friend aside, you can't deny the chemistry between opposite sex lah. It just attracts you differently. For me, I'm glad it was Ken. He's one amusing fella, lurus bendul and all. And right when I'm in the middle of major headache and stress, it helped alot. Little cream on the cake: I don't have to worry about the bill. Yes!!! Taking full advantage tuuuuu... ahahaha... Seriously though it was a kind gesture. Anyway he actually annoys me most of the time and I'm just waiting for the time to return the 'favour'.

Recent mishap

An update how my scar looks like currently.


Eeewwwww! How horrid. Can see from a mile away.

I got lots of scars on my both feet ever since we started packing and moving so no depression era is going erupt soon. It's just so basi and expected already. I've gotten used to it. Anyway on a happier note, I'm going to apply new layer of henna soon on fingers. Dah nak abis dah yang ada kat tangan ni pon. People always relate inai with anything matrimony. Hello, I love the sight of henna on my fingers so back off ok.

Oh yea. Bloggers, gather round. I believe, generally, people are kind. So please let the kindness shine through this time. Download the questionnaire below, complete them and then send it over to Arf Zan (nazfa_83 at It's about blogging, to complete a TESL research project. It will take you about 5-10 min tops.

Questionnaire - bloggers writing strategies q.doc

So be nice people. Offer a hand.

Damn I'm so sleepy.

No tuition today. Yay!! *jumping around*

Thursday, March 9, 2006


How do you feel if someone told you they liked you?

How do you tell them you can't commit that much anymore after getting hurt so badly?

How do you tell them you like the place life has offered you so far?

You've been blooming all by yourself.

How do you tell them that you're afraid?

You need time to heal.

How do you tell them that hurting them is the last thing on your mind?

You want to be fair.

So how do you tell them?

Wednesday, March 8, 2006

Once upon a time, I never did coffee

From a non-coffee drinker, now I have them running down my esophagus all the time. And the reason behind it is I have to keep myself awake from my lack of sleep hours... I had lead such a healthy life... *sigh*....aahhh those were the days....kui kui poyo je niee.... But seriously I didn't know how people can drink coffee all the time.

I never could drink coffee because of its bitterness. I tried Nescafe 3 in 1 but just couldn't! I love sweet things, baby. They're pleasant and easy on the tastebud don't they. So when it came down to me how keep my concious moments to even exist these days, I had to learn how to gulp it all, coffee and everything that comes with it. So long as I get to have precious extra few hours for myself. I've tried again the 3 in 1 but I add a couple of tablespoons of sugar. Make it sweet then only can I drink it without any cringe on my face. Cringes make you look old faster than anything else. So don't cringe people. Petua awet muda nieee.... huwah huwah.... inteprem

Anyway, back to real issue at hand here. Since February I have been in hell. Yea well all hell has broken loose on me it seems. Deadlines and tutoring and whatnot. I have little time for my family (here comes the leteran from ibunda), if not nothing at all (here comes in the komplen and frustrations from dear friends). Let alone time for myself. I'm all tensed up (please may I scream now).

Don't get me wrong. I'm not complaining. I've been wanting to to all the things I do right now for a long time. For that I'm thankful. It's just that it's been such a hell of a situation to adjust myself into. And sadly I'm not being blessed with longer transition period. As a result, my body took it as a shock. For example, I was late for 2 weeks last month and that is not good for any woman. It's a sign your body is receiving alot more than it can usually take. Stress, people, is not always a good thing. Whatever gave me the impression it's good at all...heh... My sleep hours, used to had 6, now is cut to 4 1/2! You can call me zombie already. Bleh. I am officially sleep-deprived...zzzzzzz.....

And now look at what I've turned to. Caffeine! Yea yea. Caffeine lovers need not read this. Skip the paragraph please. Anyway it's like drugs. Quitely and slowly it's taking over my brain and sanity. I just can't believe I'm drinking coffee now. Extra spoons of sugar aside, it's still coffee if you have coffee ingredients in it. I don't even like chocolate, how the heck did I get here?

This is too much of a rambling over coffee. I give up.

Wednesday, March 1, 2006


May be the face I can't forget
A trace of pleasure or regret
May be my treasure or the price I have to pay

May be the song that summer sings
May be the chill that autumn brings
May be a hundred different things
Within the measure of a day

May be the beauty or the beast
May be the famine or the feast
May turn each day into a heaven or a hell

May be the mirror of my dreams
A smile reflected in a stream
She may not be what she may seem
Inside her shell

Who always seems so happy in a crowd
Whose eyes can be so private and so proud
No one's allowed to see them when they cry

May be the love that cannot hope to last
May come to me from shadows of the past
That I remember till the day I die

May be the reason I survive
The why and wherefore I'm alive
The one I'll care for through the rough and rainy years

I'll take her laughter and her tears
And make them all my souvenirs
For where she goes I've got to be
The meaning of my life is she

p/s: Happy Birthday to mueh!!! Many many many happy returns.