Monday, January 31, 2005


Woke up very late! I thought I had set the alarm last night. Luckily there's NPE. 100 over all the way. Punched my card just on time. What's happening? Shit.


My bf broke up with me this morning. So don't tell me any relationship jokes. It won't be funny.

I saw it coming but I worked hard to not to let it happen. It was very unexpected. I think what he did was wrong. Whatever. Nothing matters now.

I tried to hold my tears so bad when he spoke. Oh shit. They fell finally.

The people I have to face. My family. Shit shit shit.

I don't actually have Plan B. Shit.

2 1/2 years and that's it? What am I going to do?? Why am I suddenly cursing?

Saturday, January 29, 2005


On the 27th, ICT dept. has a won the SUK ICT Innovation Award for the year 2004! It was a happy day that came with RM3000 + other stuff.




Wednesday, January 26, 2005


I'm back!!! After 5 days of leave, I'm finally back in the office officially. I worked on my notebook casually in Penang.

Just found out that yesterday was a holiday for us (Thaipusam celebration). It is a national holiday but last week we were told the 25th's would be pushed backward to Saturday as it was a working day. So Saturday would be off and we have to apply leave on Tuesday if we ever needed taking the day off. And suddenly they told me this morning that yesterday was a SYABAS' holiday!

It seemed that others got to know it during the weekend by several calls that made in rush to spread the news. There were people who came to work yesterday because they didn't know!! I was lucky enough because the leave I applied on Saturday could be carried forward to Tuesday (which then I thought was a working day and posted on company's memo) so I was excused from the tormenting pleasure of coming to work and found the office closed.

There are over 1600 employees and they didn't manage to plan in advance. How dissappointing. I don't know what's happening upstairs, the new management team coping with a big company. They're still struggling I guess but for the better I hope.

Friday, January 21, 2005


Take a look, here I am, can't you see

One simple smile from you could set me free

So if you take a look

Let your heart be your guide

I'll show you love

If you take a look

At the girl inside

Wednesday, January 19, 2005

Restructuring mishap

I just found out that our department has to move upstairs - 6th @ 5th floor! The CEO wants to be close to ICT. Want to be closer, move down lah CEO. Kalau takat 4,5 org staf bolehla tempat kecik. Atas punyer lah kecik, boleh ke muat 16 of us?

Only 3 of us are non-exec. Yang lain sumer exec, meja kat atas sume untuk non-exec. Takkan kitorang dapat meja camtu lak??? Meja tu sket nyer kecik. Nak buat keje pon takleh. Letak pc, space nak nulis dah takde. Kalau untuk kerani leh la. We're feeling like being demoted. Oh man... that's not going to do good for the production.

ICT banyak barang. Stor untuk PC + server-server nak letak mana? Training lab kat ground floor. Camana nak monitor kalau dah jauh camtu?? Mission room untuk GIS kat ground floor gak. Kalau ada pape dalam masa projek berjalan, susah plak. Skang ni pon diorang selalu masuk opis enquire itu ini. Hangin tul la camni!!

Renovate lelawa sket baru tak bebel camni karang. Paling leceh skali everytime kena turun naik lif. Jauh dari surau, jauh dari kantin. Kalu jadik blackout cam ari tu, jenuh la turun naik lif pulak. Ader pape hal kat district, kena turun naik semata-mata nak pegi district. Tak strategik langsung la weiiii... Lagipon sume dah comfortable kat sini. Pehal nak naik plak? Kalau naik gaji takper la jugak. Cam tensen tul lah. Takleh nak concentrate buat keje dah nih.

Esok dah cuti sampai Selasa. Data nak kena filter out pastuh nak kena pas kat diorang pulak. Data bukan sikit. Satu cd ada 400 - 500 over files. I have 7 cd's with me now. All have to be done today to have it passed on to Antaragrafik people at least today. I can't work like this.


Urrgghh. I need to calm down. Maybe there's something good about moving that's beyond my sight at the moment. I'm too consumed with fury.

Tuesday, January 18, 2005


YEEEAAAAH!!! My first blogskin is finally finished! Phew.

Not that it's that georgeous but it has been there sooo long I have to get it done. Or else it would have tortured my mind. I love playing around with graphics, it's my hobby since I got to know HTML in 1997. It's long abandoned but I'm bringing it back in my life along with newly found joy in CSS.

I'm not going to put the link here because I don't feel like it. It's a very simple design. Wait till I've created a few then I'll put up a nice page for people to see.

Monday, January 17, 2005


Cavendish Knights

I found out about it with courtesy of Tarlia. If I had the money I'll do it for the sake of meeting new people and having fun over a few drinks. That'd be good for a change for me who doesn't have much time to go out these days. To be pampered like that is such, such, such a good thing. Sadly that kind of service is not available in Malaysia. Well even if it was, I'm not sure I'm going to do it...heheh...

Friday, January 14, 2005

True by Ryan Cabrera


I won't talk

I won't breathe

I won't move till you finally see

That you belong with me

You might think I don't look

But deep inside the corner of my mind

I'm attatched to you

I'm weak, it's true

Cause I'm afraid to know the answer

Do you want me too?

Cause my heart keeps falling faster

I've waited all my life to cross this line

To the only thing that's true

So I will not hide

It's time to try anything to be with you

All my life I've waited

This is true

You don't know what you do

Everytime you walk into the room

I'm afraid to move

I'm weak, it's true

I'm just scared to know the ending

Do you see me too?

Do you even know you met me?

I've waited all my life to cross this line

To the only thing thats true

So I will not hide

It's time to try anything to be with you

All my life I've waited

This is true

I know when I go

I'll be on my way to you

The way that's true

I've waited all my life to cross this line

To the only thing thats true

So I will not hide

It's time to try anything to be with you

All my life I've waited

This is true


I haven't had my car washed for dayzzzzz! It's amazing how you can see the color through the visible dots of dust. That's the result you get when you only arrive home at 8 everyday.


Semalam blackout punyer lah lama. Seminar kat Sunway dapat attend halfway jer. Aper kena ntah ngan TNB. Hari tuh satu mesia dah gelap. Ni lagi skali plak. Traffic punyer lah terok sbb lampu isyarat tak jalan. Manyak tensi la ini macam.... Luckily NPE takde traffic light so it was quite a smooth drive lah.

Thursday, January 13, 2005


Over a few days lately I received lots and lots of pics and news on tsunami by emails. Some were advice, some were horrible pics especially those with dead people all over it or only one but a close up pic! I don't know why they keep forwarding it. It's horrendous but I'm sure it's a novelty to those who are not medical field in any way. It's so sad to see so many lives taken all at once. It scares me a little.

I'm going to Sunway today for a seminar of some sort. Will start at 9 but I was told the traffic enroute to that area is awful.

I have a bad stomach this morning. This is a bad news.

Tuesday, January 11, 2005


Cam dah lama tak apdet blog. I've been busy, I still am, with work that is. Like yesterday, I was runing up and downstairs to make sure the Antaragrafik people were alright with the configurations and stuff. They spent lots of time trying to connect to Oracle through G/Tech but only 1 workstation worked. The rest 3 were being very very stubborn!

There are so many things to be done. On the 13th there'll be a meeting which I haven't prepared the minute yet. I accepted the proposed date without realizing I was supposed to attend a seminar that day. I don't know what my brain has become in the midst of this new project. I reached home at 8.30pm yesterday. Urrghh... now I know how is it the life of a private sector very lamely paid but hardworking employee.

SYABAS has just takenver PUAS. We have seen a glimpse of the new management yesterday. The monthly Management Seminar was held yesterday and they were only finished at 12.30am! And that's not actually finished. They had to go to some more presentations from districts respectively and a few other deparments. All that just to make sure that Tan Sri got a grip on what former PUAS operations are all about.... He's from PNSB, what operations do they have other than a few treatment plants to look after over Selangor????

I don't know why I'm taking the time to blog at this hour. I should be doing the minute and go through my to-do list. I think the Antaragrafik people are here already. Ok that's my cue.

Monday, January 3, 2005


Wooohoooo!!!! Best wo gi PD last weekend. Ala-ala family day gitu walaupon yang pegi tuh sumer single (as in lom kawen)...kih kih... Best gak jumpa kawan2 skolah dulu walaupon tak sume. Ramai yang tarik diri because of various reasons temasokla pasal tsunami. I'm telling you lah, memang rugi la saper yang tak pegi. Actually kite pon dah kansel sebab ada function kat opis. Si Noe pujuk gak, so upon arriving home, pack la pape yang patut ngan terkecoh2nyer. Iron malas bawak so bawak sume yang tak payah iron.

The only thing yang kite takleh bayang is camna la bebudak laki yang ramai tuh leh muat one very small apartment. Ada yang tido kat balkoni ker aper....heh! I purposely tak bawak kamera. Tatau lak naper.

The best thing is kite actually berborak ngan org yang tak penah diborak pon sebelom nih. And it turned out that diorang tuh pon leh jer layan sume jenis kaum. Samira turned up! Terkujat mak nenek wehh nampak dia kat lobby. Baper kali jeling2 nak make sure my eyes weren't deceiving me. Rupanya dia balik jap cuti krismes dari UK.

Dapat apartment yang ngadap laut. I was speechless when I entered the rumah because the windows were straight across the door. Step in, you'll see the view. Rumah takla sehebat mana tapi it was comfy. Ada ruang dapur + ruang tamu + tv.

Petang tu di isi dengan preparation utk bbq malamnyer. Terpukau nengok Fatin menggomol ayam2 ngan bahan2 perapan...kah kah... Tak lunch lagi ari tu, lapar nyer feeling takleh di describe dah pon. Sume serbu bbq jerlah, sib baik banyak, ada lebih lagi tuh (sume abis time breakfast pagi besoknyer). BBQ + sesi berborak punyerlah lama sampai kul 11. Pehtu ada games lagik. Pas games sambung borak lagi. Kite naik kat kul 2 lebih. Diorg ntah naik kul baper tatau.

Malam tido kat ruang tamu tuh with windows opened. Nyamuk punyerlah banyak mengganggu kosentrasi mimpi yang best2 jer!! huh! Pagi esok lepas subuh, when other girls were all excited to be finally dapat berenang (7.30 am), kite melantak sambung tido... not entirely a peaceful sleep either. Occasionally dapat dengar sore Fatin + Jenet tergelak2 sakan ngan yang lain dari beach. Yang buat kite terjaga was when diorg naik banana boat. Ya rabbiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii!!! Boleh ngucap jer. Pehtu sambung tido balik. The guys were only out kul 10. Sesambil tgk tv, tgk gak diorg nyer aktiviti kat beach. Tegelak sensorang tgk diorg nyer gelagat.

Pas mandi, join diorg sekejap on the beach, tgk diorg main bola jaring atas air (hahaha!), amik gambar, kul 12 baru naik. I wasn't keen on berendam dalam air dengan berbaju + tudung. Rimas lah ngan org ramai dok tengok. Kalau seluar basah sebab main kat tepi2 laut tu tadde hal.

Pape pon it was a blast. Sume org sporting main games...kih kih.. It was a weekend to remember.


Saturday, January 1, 2005

The Way You Look Tonight

I love the song!!!

By the way, I heard this from men's point of view:

When the stars are in her eyes

And the sun is in her smile

The only moment in a life

That happens at the same time

Is when a woman loves a man

She'll be a mother and a child

Sacrifice her days and nights

And no other will exist

She'll put a laugh in every kiss

When a woman loves a man

And you'll be amazed at when you're stumbling

She'll fight for you, won't let you give in

She'll do all that she can

When a woman loves a man

A soothing breeze always blows

Somebody understands another soul

It's like the planets have aligned

Every sentence has a rhyme

When a woman loves a man

Oh you'll be amazed at when you're needing it

She'll fight for you, never give in to the end

And she'll do all that she can

When a woman loves a man

It's the greatest gift of all

A loving that unconditional

She'll catch you when you fall

When the stars are in her eyes

And the sun is in her smile

She'll be a mother and that child

But all at the same time

When a woman loves a man

She'll be your air, she'll bring you life

She'll make the sacrifice

When a woman loves a man

It's interesting to see how they see it. It's different from the way we do but it's just as beautiful.