Today and for the next 2 days I'll be in close contact with UPM people. They're from various faculties but I just couldn't help feeling envious with these people. I've always been jealous of academicians. Regardless of their field of studies, I've always been fascinated by the idea of working within a college campus - surrounded by brilliant people, such an honor lah. You meet and exchange ideas with all the Profs and Dr, what could be more exciting than that. I'm overreacting here simply because I've been wanting to get it and continue my studies. Alas, fate has something else stored for me everytime. I mean every damn time. According to plan, I should be somewhere pursuing my PhD right now fully sponsored with paid leave! Adeiiii thinking about it gives me headache.
Anyway, I'm not saying brilliant people only exist in universities. The place I work now has plenty of those. Just that, you know, it's been a dream and so far has not been fruitful. Tensen ok. Aaaaarrggghhhh!!! Bertambah tensen apabila terpaksa mengajar orang-orang dari mana-mana universiti. Going through the list I saw one dean of science faculty. Oh if I had been one of his daughters, alangkah senangnyer untuk dapatkan tempat! Not everyone in the class is academicians of course but they work within their vicinity which I feel ridiculous to feel jealous of but I do anyway. Stupid hormone.