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You know this may sound insignificant to you, but I had spent my weekend without doing any office work at home! I stayed up late but all for the cause of reliving my VCD heaven wee hours back in uni. I'm a movie mania, back then I knew everything there was about any movie. Not anymore lah, now that clear pictures don't come in RM5 anymore and the fact that I'm broke every other month...bla bla... I can't afford Speedy's. Get me a rich husband and I'll buy you all one. Ha ha.

Anywayzzz, Muaz is back home bercuti-cuti malaysia. And Otel is going back. I haven't taken pictures lately. I'm so malas these days... my productivity is tumbling down the cliff at work. Hey don't blame me, I'm not the only one.... *cough* I shouldn't say this but... *cough* *cough*.... the HR has apparently overlooked our salary range *cough*..... and the GM seems to have just realized it (what??!!) and is preparing the proposal of an increment (and how long exactly would that take?).... yea ermmm *cough*.... okay you don't hear this from me.

On another note, how would you feel if your ex wants to get back to you? In my case, I can't even see him let alone getting back together. I mean are you nuts? It took me like a year or so to get my life back on track. Why would I be with someone who doesn't keep his promises? Who left me alone to deal everything with my family? Who didn't give me a chance to make things better? Why would I? Tell me. Why would I put myself in a likely position just to get hurt again in the end? It's a suicide don't you think? Well, unless he's changed but that's not my business really.

I think he's broken up with someone recently, this is just a wild guess from his words. I don't know. We don't talk that often, just messaging, on a very rare occasions. It's a way of me forgiving people so I don't have that hatred feelings towards him. What he wants to do with his life is his choice alone and I don't want to be any part of it. Maybe I can be "friends" with him (like he has suggested), maybe not. I try to but it's been difficult. I guess it depends on how you see it. For me, personally, getting hurt that bad, I don't think we could ever be on best friends terms again, no matter how close we were last time. Me and Bad are now more like acquaintances. Don't get me wrong, I'll offer him help if he needs any and I won't expect anything in return. It's like we acknowledge each other's existence but not more than that, well from my point of view at least. Sad, isn't it? When we were so in love once. Maybe we had something together but that's something in the past now. It could've been better but he gave up on me. Too bad.

On a happier note, I woke up this morning feeling like a whole new person. I'm going to start a new job soon. I'm ditching my glasses for contact lenses after 15 years hiding behind it. This is truly a life turning point for me. The glass is half full. I'm going to pursue my dreams. Now if only there's someone to share this with..... Berangan beb jangan tak berangan... heh!

At the moment I'm so lucky to have this and a whole lot from this. Hehehhehehe... Oi buat keje oiii!

Good lyrics have done it again. Have obviously never noticed it before. So what if Boyzone sings it. I'm so mellowed, that's what matters here... lalalala....

I like the feel of your name on my lips
And I like the sound of your sweet gentle kiss
The way that your fingers run through my hair
And how your scent lingers even when you're not there

And I like the way your eyes dance when you laugh
And how you enjoy your two-hour bath
And how you've convinced me to dance in the rain
With everyone watching like we were insane

But I love the way you love me
Strong and wild, slow and easy
Heart and soul so completely
I love the way you love me

And I like the sound of old R&B
And you roll your eyes when I'm slightly off key
And I like the innocent way that you cry
At sappy old movies you've seen thousands of times

And I could list a million things
I love to like about you
But they could all come down to one reason
I could never live without you