questions

Everything has limits isn't it? Friends should be just friends. I don't know why he asks me out every week. I don't feel good turning him down. What's with the hand holding? What's with the kisses on the cheek? What's with the phone calls? I totally have no idea what's he doing!! I'm so angry that he does those things he does. I mean, this is WRONG!! I need to straighten things up. Why does it have to be like this? I've been trying so hard to avoid anything like this. Why does it have to happen to me? I am angry.

Tikus Itam

Yeah well.... it's already 7 pm and I haven't reached home yet! All these due to some stupid tedious free web hosting I had to do which led me to this newfound definitions of boredom and frustation.

Helped a colleague to set up her first blog. It wasn't that bad but it wasn't that easy for her too. Ahh...the novelty of HTML really caught her eyes. Reminded me of my first attempt of HTML a few years back. Now it's all wasted.

Didn't do any real work today due to boss and other colleagues MIA. Did some GIS work but had to stop halfway. Okay I'm chasing the time.

bla..bla..bla... da da dim dum dum....

I'm out.

Hoobastank - The Reason

I'm not a perfect person

There's many things I wish I didn't do

But I continue learning

I never meant to do those things to you

And so I have to say before I go

That I just want you to know

I found a reason for me

To change who I use to be

A reason to start over new

And the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you

It's something I must live with everyday

And all the pain I put you through

I wish that I could take it the way

And me the one who catches all your tears

That's why I need you to hear

I found a reason for me

To change who I use to be

A reason to start over new

And the reason is you

And the reason is you

And the reason is you

And the reason is you

I'm not a perfect person

I never meant to do those things to you

And so I have to say before I go

That I just want you to know

I found a reason for me

To change who I use to be

A reason to start over new

And the reason is you

I found a reason to show

A side of me you didn't know

A reason for all that I do

And the reason is you

**Some people wouldn't agree that this song is good. Well it's one of my favorite and that's a good reason to put it here, good enough for me.

Typical Monday

Wish it was a Sunday I woke up to this morning. I had a weird dream last night. It was about my father, quite sad but they say what you dream is actually the opposite of what's going to happen. So I'm looking forward to hear good news soon... bila la abah boleh balik umah nieeeeee.....

Mother + I went to Bandar Puncak Alam to take the keys of her new house! It was very small, I doubt it that we could all live there, 6 of us, all grown ups. We won't fit there. The place is good for 2 people only looking at how small it is. The first thing I noticed was the kitchen. It was so small I don't think the fridge could go in there (camana nak masak ni??). And also the bathrooms. I don't like the toilet bowls, must change them to other types of bowls! Everything else is functioning well I guess. While we were there we couldn't figure out how to bring all those stuff in our current house to there because there simply will be not enough space for them! My father's book collection alone would take the entire room. My mother's cutlery + dishes (+ tupperware...banyak weh..). Also our bed sheets and curtains and comforters and etc etc. And our computers and gadgets and stuff... Okay I'll stop worrying. Not that we're going to move in there, not final at least.

Okay I'm all blown up today with our GIS. The boss wants it to be web based. I agree, I can see where's he heading. It's running quite okay but I'm thinking of using open source stuff so it'll cost much less. I'm stuck with projection (okay only GIS ppl understand what I'm blabbering about here =D). The maps won't come out but the background is there. I think it came out but the projection was wrong. And I'm seriously considering my problem is caused by our non-earth maps. I should convert it to earth, shouldn't I? I'll try that later.

That should bring me back to work. I'm out.

Today's Friday...

...and I luuuuurrrrvvvveee Fridays!!!! Will probably go to a some-flower-landscaping-thing carnival tomorrow with mom. Oh I can't wait.

Got back from office late yesterday. Was playing around with this GIS thing and it's killing me slowly everyday. But I like it. I'm one of those crazy mad people who loves working, slogging my butt off. I like being busy, makes me feel like I'm important or something..heheh...

I was visiting a site yesterday (sajer ngulat), there were lots of blinkies there. Oh how I love them. They 're the cutest thing. Reminds me of how much I enjoyed creating graphics for my site 2 years back. I love making graphics actually but don't have the time. It was my favourite activity on computer. Can't commit to anything else now except to work. How sad that is, like I don't have a life yeah? My work is my life now. I'm totally going to eat and breath GIS! haha!

Another book came in my mailbox yesterday. Life of Pi. Am excited to receive the book, will read it soon. That makes it 4 books currently I'm holding to pass them on.

* The Secret WIfe of King George IV - finished this in a day, an excelent read!

* She's Come Undone - this one is hard to digest, have been on it since 1st July

* Four L etters of Love - just started reading

* Life of Pi - putting it on top of my to be read pile

Signing off....

stepping in...

Okay so this will be my online journal from now on. I already have an online journal but I'm going to stop journaling there and continue it here. Or should I say blogging?...oh whatever.... Since it's a little bit tedious doing it manually, I'll just use this blogger thingy to speed things up abit. Also I may move my website to here, slowly that is. I did it when I had all the time in the world and I thought I would be playing with graphics and all and publishing them there. No time now since I have a very tight schedule, both at work AND at home. sigh

What a painful work to set it up! Took me nearly a day to find a suitable skin. And all these skins, they don't provide link for comments. So I thought okay fine, I'll add the comment thing later. So I grab a few codes to try on my dear newly established blog. I decided to go for one skin. Skin was up. Comments link next. I had to struggle a with great difficulty and it was a huge pain in the ass. After some time messing with the code, yay it was a success!!! Was so happy I didn't see there was no archives link in the code! duh...

So I had to try to put the link there. It was a complete mess even though it wasn't supposed to be that hard. Oh well, my eyes + my brain must've had enough for the day then. Thinking that I should take a break, I went out for lunch. When I came back, I changed the entire skin with the one link (the one I like of course) with archives. Comments will go in much much later I guess.

I'm still a blogger newbie so I'll wait for some time before I make changes. It's running fine at the moment so no worries. For the blog, tq blogspot. And for the skin, I'd be forever grateful to the creator for providing it for free. Okay I'm out.