Don't read this - it's depressing

Bad morning to start with today. Had a chat with a concern HR exec just now. Abah might lose his job. And we might have to move out of the house. Shit!

Why la KDN have you asked of us this much? It all started from you you sick heartless sickening bunch of people. You've done enough damage that you've taken away an innocent man from his family. Now the family has to pay too? Like we hasn't all this while. And we're not even supposed to. We've been unbelievably patient and had come to understand, although under very unbelievebly difficult condition, that abah is doing his service to help uphold the country's honor in some way. Now what he gets in return? Apart from his hanging by a thread family condition, what else do you want lah KDN? Squash him flat? Who the hell are you?? By right he should've been out a year ago and probably we wouldn't have to face this. But noooo... everything must go your way. You suddenly said 2 years were not going to be enough and then you raised the bar to another 2 years? What the hell are you doing? You can't find anything to chuckle about under your nose so you keep detaining him there for WHAT??! A glorious moment of victory?? Oh God save it! I don't want to know. I want my abah back you piece of *&#^#*&@!!

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My family keeps detoriating but we try to keep it strong for each other everyday. Luckily even when he's far abah always manage to calm us down with his wise words. He truly sheds light to what it means to be a muslim. Truth be told, violence is not our way of doing things. Or rebellious acts for that matter (seriously what good does it bring?). It's a blessing to be part of his life. I can't talk about abah without felling welled up inside. It's a pity how a respected professional is taken down with such disgraceful way. There goes his reputation and his recognized services with the government, all to the drain. Would you return that to abah, KDN? You have no heart and I'm sorry for that.

In times like this, I always remember what abah wrote to me 2 years ago when I was studying: Innallaha ma'asabirin. It brings some kind of assurance to my heart.

Bookcrossing anyone?

Finally I've finished Dahl's book (Boy & Going Solo)! And it has become one of my favorites. I love well written biographies. I don't understand why people read fictions. Movies make more sense. How people can be so inclined towards it is beyond me. It's not real and it's full of good sentences. It's probably because I'm not a good writer. I don't know how to appreciate beautiful sentences. Yea that's probably it. With that said, I love children books! Hmm... how did that happen?

Unlike some, I wasn't born bookworm. There are people who since small couldn't get their eyes/hands off of books and those are officially bookworms since birth to me. I remember started to love reading but then because of lack of books laying around the house so it gradually faded off. Books were never really my thing until 2003, when I discovered bookcrossing.com! Being a generous as I was *bows* (thank you thank you), I was quickly absorbed to the idea of leaving id'ed books to be found by someone else and later get to know where/who it ended up with. If you really think about it, what are the chances you're going to reread your books again?? Me? Zero. Nada. Exceptions only apply to a few books. But then I released 2 of my favorite books last year. Well I was not just going to keep it gathering dust on shelf, was I? And I was fascinated by plenty of hot new books at the time. So no time there and there they went, a trip abroad reaching Europe and the US, something that would not have been possible if it wasn't for bookcrossing.com. Heck even bookcrossing is added to Oxford dictionary due to its colossal growth.

What I really like about it is the community. You can never find any more generous community like it anywhere else online. I've received over 10 books last year just out of the kindness of bookcrossers and the beauty of it all. They traded books on trust basis and carry along integrity with them. You'll kind of grow some respect for them eventually for their unselfishness. Of course there are few bad asses in the crowd. And who can blame them.

But personally, it's not only about receiving. You have to give if not equally. It's about sharing, not abusing. Yeah well being in Asia and not so many active asian bookcrossers compared to those of in US/Europe, and I can't always afford sending books any more further than Australia,... lots of bookrays ended up with me. Now my shelf size is bigger than before which is only amusing temporarily. I have to pass it on. No good sitting duck when somebody else can enjoy reading them no? I don't profess myself a bookworm. I'm more of a casual reader.

I have always believed that people are generally nice. Bookcrossing.com has seriously proved me that. Being nice isn't that bad. So bookcrossing anyone?

OOooohh... warm night. When's it going to rain???

Wingnut

A guy blown his brain off. Quran dumped in the toilet and pissed on. Read it here.

Utter disrespect. Uncivilized behaviour. Serious selfish unforgivable act on display.

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Cilok dari Am.

You scored as Logical/Mathematical. You like to work with numbers and ask questions. You learn best by classifying information, engaging in abstract thinking and looking for common basic principles. People like you include mathematicians, biologists, medical technicians, geologists, engineers, physicists, researchers and other scientists.

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I'm helpless when it comes to numbers.

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At this stage of my life, I only wish for these during my next 10 years of my life.

• Pursue my master's degree


• Speak fluent french


• Secure a house of my own

I need to accomplish any two of those.

My other personal wishes. And I need them desperately. In no particular order:

• Lolita Lempicka EDP - my signature scent


• A pc/Mac with decent spec - I play with lots of graphics


• Charmbracelets


• A digital camera - optical zoom 4.0 megapix at least


• A black leather strap lady watch (square dial)


• White pair of shoes and matching handbag


• A jewelry bought using my hard-earned money

There you go, duniawi wishes. Being all meterialistic and practical at the same time. If I had extra cash then the list would expand of course... as anyone's list does. But ultimately, being the eldest, what I really want is to be able to back up my family financially, whenever that time comes.

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Il t'aime la nuit et moins le jour
Il pense à d'autres quand il te sourie, et te parle d'amour
(Ooh! Qu'est-ce que tu te fais?)
Il a les mots pour te faire rêver.
Il a le tour, il a ce qu'il faut.
Pour te faire rester.
Ooh! Qu'est-ce que tu te fais?

Ooh! Ooh! Ooh! Ooh!
Qu'est-ce que tu te fais?

Il ne te parle plus, après l'amour
T'es juste une autre, ni moins, ni plus
C'était juste ton tour.
Ooh! Qu'est-ce que tu te fais?
Quand rien ne va, il te revient
Tu le reprends et il repart
Dès que tout va bien
Ooh! Qu'est que tu te fais?

Quand tu le menaces,
il te dit : «je t'aime».
Tu sais qu'il le dit à ces autres filles et tu restes quand même.
Je sais très bien, que sans lui, t'as peur.
Mais sache, qu'une larme ça sèche,
et avec lui tu meurs - ooh!