And a very private one too. Believe it or not, I was a class clown when I was 13 for that odd 6 months of my life. I moved on after that realizing there was no fun in it. Sure I had lots of friends and it was fun in a way that I had alot of people to talk to when I felt like it but real friends was what I was looking for. Besides, I wasn't being myself.
I have this one thing about me that bothers me alot. Sometimes it can a be a nuisance, but probably a virtue in some other different circumstances. But still it bothers me. I can be very direct with my words. Now, old friends know this very well and they put up with me everytime (I hope), which I'm very grateful for. New friends on the other hand are very hard to tackle. Usually I end up being quiet as to restrain myself from saying stuff that might hurt other people's feelings. Or sometimes, the words escape my mouth halfway but then I stop and making up other words to finish the sentence that don't make sense and I get these faces staring back at me. To make things worse is my natural tone of voice. If I don't hold eye contact while conversing I swear the person I talk to would think I was mad at them for something. But like I said before, this isn't the case with old friends.
Ok now I sound like I scold people for a living... heh!